Jacks

Tuesday, March 30, 2010; Hundred

Hundred Post!

First post kena ruin cause blogger got problem.
So this post now is to replace that previous.
More cheerful and happy de of course!
Maybe a little truth below okay. =D

So hundred post...
Means at least 100 days of memories.
Wow... so many days have past since my second blog.
Amazing. So much has changed also...
Hurt here a little. There a little.
I of course changed too. XD

Today today today!
Cut my fringe by around 1 cm.
OMG I WANT LONGER HAIR!!!
Went to singapore poly. Take this & that.
Hmm... next few days will be busy.
Till no time to online!
Saddening. TT

When I get to online.
I will soon be studying in singapore poly.
Meaning less chance to return to chai chee sec.
Suddenly remembering you telling me to go back often.
Not wanting me to leave chai chee.
Cause I say last day in school le.
Lol! So much happened... =p

Haiz...
Sometime hope I can be angry at you.
But but. I just can't find any reason to be angry.
Worst still. I have no idea why am I not sad.
I should be. ^^

From the maybe side of view.
Maybe because I think I know you too well.
Until the point where I keep thinking I know everything.
Maybe the fact is cause I don't know anything at all.
Too much of maybe le. =_=

All the stuffs you said before.
Just created all this maybe maybe maybe.
Maybe feels different?
Maybe you have changed?
Maybe I have changed?
Maybe it's over?
Maybe you are bored?
Maybe you are stress?
Maybe I am lying to myself?
Maybe I maybe too much?!
Too much to mention.
Damn... Haha! > <

Haha funny but that's that. =)

Love is just another word for me I afraid...

Alright... Hundred post finish!
Shall start up a new blog. Hehe!
Wait till I call you guys to relink. Busy! (^,^)

Thursday, March 25, 2010; Three

I just can't forget the happy memories... that one day out with you. It was simply happy and no sadness at all. Still remember that poa I done. That lame happy face moon. Sending msg even through your opposite me. Went to eat donut. Having that long chat. All the relative encounter. The crying baby in mrt. Taking bus another relative. Omg... Finally the walk with you home. Hahaha! Love it... That day too happy till post super ultra long. =D

Sunday, March 21, 2010; Love

Gazette - Before I decay.

Gazette! Oh my... XD

Plastic Tree - Sanatorium.

Plastic Tree... Damn!

Phantasmagoria - Eternal Silence.

Phantasmagoria... Shita. Look!

Oh my... I love Japanese hairstyle. Dressing.
Crapppp. In fact. Everything about Japan. Sweet...

Today spend time with family. Went out. So hai hao.
Used notebook on bed as well. Pretty crazy. Neckache!

Bought a book that talk about fortune and feng shui...
It was basically so true. Like when i cross reference to my life.

When what come. When what go.
Was so hit bulleye till i didnt want continue reading.

Tomorrow gonna head to school and well. Play bball.
While I still have the chance huh. Feel much relieve nowadays.

Good thing huh. Love it. No more emo for me.
Gonna be even more fucking crazy bastards and bitches!

Saturday, March 20, 2010; Yawn

It's 330am. Gosh... Sleeping hours are fucking cock up.
Had another long day. To keep it short. Just say it was fun.

Had to open myself up more. And be more truthful and honest.
This few day emo till crazy. But that's that. The end. Tired of emo.

I begin to understand. Through my friend's "love" encounter.
Even it's sad. I fully understand. Weird but yeah. It can't be force.

So if that's the case. Using time to change myself for a bit would be good.
For example. Having a longer hair. And yeah a nice and cool one. Haha!

My life is pretty lucky and good already. Compare to those poor.
I get the technology. The fun. The experiences. Lots more.

So better stop all this love love love shit. Hehe.
Imagine if no computer and handphone.

Even I am not sure what the fuck is love.
But am sure it is something happy.

And only real life love.
I am finding that.

NOT SOME BULLSHIT INTERNET LOVE! MSN/SMS.
ACTING ALL FUCKED AND EMO AINT MY STYLE.

People who know me should know.
Wait no one know me. Lol!
Cant wait for poly admission!!!

Wrong era I was born in perhaps.

Thursday, March 18, 2010; Not

Edited!

Sort out my mind a little.
Being bit crazy. Or very crazy.
Thought of all the crazy-est stuffs.
Just say lucky I didn't attempt it. Haha.

Everything will be fine.
Numb-ed myself. It work.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010; Beauty

A lunatic's lament.

I still remember the dream I had.
Which has you and me in it.
It's feels real.

If I could have a wish now.
It will be to be trap in that dream forever...

Tuesday, March 16, 2010; Day

16 march. Woke up seven. Won the match.
Went eat at marine parade.
Fucking exhausted. Physically plus mentally.
Tried to sleep. Can't sleep for 2 hours.
Headache like fuck. Irritated. Annoyed.
Dinner with diyana guanan danah.

Edit*

Mood was great after dinner.
Went to Gelyang. Had a blast there.
Reach home. Bath.

Stuffs that shouldn't happen happened.
Ever wondered how many things is gonna change.
It just fucking show how human are. So bored man.
Watch.

And yea. Now is already 240am.
How am i gonna spend tonight. Obviously i can't sleep.
So fucked screw up... Exhausted and now like that. Wonderful.

Things can be easy. But you made it so complicated.

Sunday, March 14, 2010; Alesana

It doesn't cure anymore.

Saturday, March 13, 2010; Tired

Long day i have today. Gonna summaries it.
Morning wake. Meet my bros.
Bus to tms secondary for carnival.
Saw lots and tons of people. Friends.
Again i cannot stand crowd.
Immediately i feel sick.
End of part 1.

Cab home and change.
Went to bedok gym to workout.
For around two hours. Damn. Push.
Amazing my shoulder are stress out.
Feel so good. Muscle growing.
I am so weak and small size.
Went home bath.
End of part 2.

Meet my bros again.
Then mrt to City Hall.
Walk to esplanade.
Had dinner outdoor.
Watched "breakout"
Finish took some photos.
End of part 3.

Walk a bit there.
Cab to Katong Shopping Centre.
Played pool.
Cab back home.
End of part 4.

It's getting late now.
Exhausted plus aching.
Will sleep soon.
End of part 5!

Every single thing you do.
Just a little part can make my day.
And it can kill my day as well.
Nevermind. Slowly bah.

Feel so pathetic. Played with facebook friends exposed.
They asked "who will always be there for you no matter what?".
And asked "who can you talk to for hours without getting bored?"
I skipped both of it. Not daring to answer it. Shit...
One day I will find the answer to the question man!

Friday, March 12, 2010; Non

Almost fainted at IT show. Fuck.
Crowd was crazy. Can't take it.
Can't breathe properly.

So bought a notebook today.
Had dinner with family.
Enjoyed my day.

There can only be so much which i blog.
The others are just lost emotion i didn't mention.
I wonder. With no answer.

My days are way worst without you. Is all I am saying.

Thursday, March 11, 2010; Kong

Feel so amazing.
Think 2 much things.
Until me gonna explode. ==''

Monday, March 8, 2010; Honest

In the past. I need someone. You appear and stay.
In the present. I need you. Everything change.
You are not here. So I make a decision.
Hopefully the right choice.
Maybe because situation is different.
Maybe I think too much.
Now and then.

Wanted to tell you. Wanted to know.
Had no chance till now. Nevermind there will be chances.

Even if I am sad.
There will always be people out there more sad than me.
Even if I have problems.
There will also be people out there got more problem than me.
So I am consider as a lucky person.
Pretty good already compare to the worst.

Too much empty promises.
Turning back to a baby will reset all this counts.
Restart...

Some people open their emotion like flowing river.
How come mine is close like holy oh my fucking zombie freeze up ice.
Maybe because it's me! =D

Sunday, March 7, 2010; Teal

Bought Final Fantasy XIII.
Will keep me occupy for some time. I guess.
Other then that. No other big or small news.

Nothing much happening. All just my brain work.

Hmm e-mailed for a job also. S'pore Expo. For End of March.
Hopefully I can get in. With Johnny of course!
Thanks to him. If get in.

Anyway Friday. Playing against tms junior team.
If win, good for the team. As I am the point guard.
If lose, shit man. It not gonna look good man.
The team. My bros. My friends. Stress die me.
So I gonna work hard on my passes. And my thinking.

Caring without expecting a favour.

I hate emo.
So I am cheerful! Wahaha... =D

LAST THING! I WANT MY HAIR TO BE LONGER!

Friday, March 5, 2010; Sat

夠愛

Tomorrow is Sat. Doesn't means anything to me.
Hmm. Got nothing much to blog about.
Or too much till dun wan people to know.

Got so much to say.
Don't know how to start.
So let me start by not starting.

Let just say.
JACKSON IS A... boy?
HE CAN THINK... FOR A DAY?!
Okay who can't. ==''

People like me always have mixed emotion. Just notice.
I can always be full of confident but always lacking of it.
Shit gonna end this post soon! Weeeheee...

I decided. And I won't want to change again. Final!
Caring for one is so difficult. But I will never give up.
You still have to see if they wanted to be care or not.
Make sure they don't find you irritating and annoying.

I have no life.
Have a sucky hairstyle.
Always eat brunch alone.
None to call.
None to message.
Play ps3 alone.
Watch drama alone.
But I have my fun everyday. Nothing's wrong bastard and bitch. =D

Tuesday, March 2, 2010; Icucicu

Is it just me thinking too much.
Or you escape even faster.
And even better than me.
Can't face it and make a conclusion.
If that is the case.
Let's keep running then!

I guess this is the reason why.