Jacks

Monday, November 30, 2009; How are you

Wahaha... Shall start from Nov 29. Forgotten what I have done in the morning and afternoon... Maybe Ps3 Assassin Creed 2 during that period of time. Anyway evening to midnight work, then cab to friend's house and sleep there. Intended to send friend off, but not very obvious, overslept and never go for it. =D

And here is Nov 30. Went to eat at Pasir Ris and went back home. From there, mrt back to Bedok and head home. Changed a set of clothes to bball attire and carry books to school. Reached school, chat for a bit, then went to marine parade community centre. Bball there till night, then home sweet home. Leg injured... Damn. Finger recovering. Yayy... =)

Found out my blog is kinda boring, without photos and bla bla bla. Furthermore, this blog never serve its main purpose. To let people know more about my current mood and stuff like that. For your information. I am a very shy person. Just I am shy and brave at the same time, I am able to shit all those shit out. So I gonna start the crap now so listen up forks...=]

Struck here for too long around 30 mins so decided not to type any shit out here... Just one sentence through, Life is "great" this few fucking months... Cheers. Stay tune you mother born bastards and bitches. =p

don't even have confident to type hi and enter it. i should go to hell if there is one. fucking no balls i am in. shit... =(

Saturday, November 28, 2009; Work

Phew... Mood kinda unstable this few days. Thought of the meaning of life again. Surprisingly I feel like wanting to throw this away
"Playing the game life with my own sets of unique rules".

Instead I will slowly adapt to this newest one
"Accept changes and change according to my mind".
Have no idea why I picked this, just pop out of my head. Maybe am too tired... Life has being meaningless. Anyway this will be my working date - Sunday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Which means I have Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday free for fucking! Great... Night people. =]

Tuesday is slash out as there is bball training. (edited)

Friday, November 27, 2009; Yawn

Gonna post about today. Short and sweet it is gonna be. Morning went Bedok eat breakfast, brought Assassin Creed 2, camp at home whole afternoon playing it. Night use computer, maybe play dota later. Tomorrow not going to online, going to be out the whole day. Morning training, afternoon family stuff, 4Eb gathering and finally work. Should be home by 1am. End! =D

And I fixed the music shit, and here's the lyrics... Thanks Eugene for this random song, not bad bah I think. Rock and Classic. Found out I only talk to two person today, mother and brother. ^^

Welcome home by Coheed And Cambria

You could have been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground
You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would have endured my world

Well if you're just as I presumed
A whore in sheep's clothing
Fucking up all I do
And if so here we stop
Then never again
Will you see this in your life

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest, is A love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

You stormed off to scar the armada
Like Jesus played myartar
I'll drill through your hands

The stone for the curse you have blamed me
With love and devotion, I'll die as you sleep.

But if you could just write me out
To nerveless wonder... happy will I become
Be true that this is no option,
So with sin I condemn you
Demon pray, Demon out.

Hang on to the glory at my right hand
Here laid to rest is our love ever longed
With truth on the shores of compassion
You seem to take premise to all of these songs

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl,
I'd do anything for you

One last kiss for you
One more wish to you
Please make up your mind girl
Before I hope you die.

Thursday, November 26, 2009; Post

Finally post instead of past came out... Yay. Honestly I am slowly getting sick of all of this. Cut the crap and continue the shit ya. Dunno why... maybe lost too much confident and the mind to do crazy things. Things has cool down by a whole lot. Is like yawn, fuck it, the same old stuffs, can't be bothered anymore... Emotional has being on the good side as time goes. Phew... Not sure it is good or bad. =) or =(, decide one bastards and bitches. XD

So let's talk about the 26 of Nov 2009. It was a beautifully scorching hot day, wake up late for bball training which starts at nine. Therefore, I cab down and ran to school... Luckily I was not late. Woo! Kinda fun as my fucking fingers recovered by a lot, even through the skin still tore, not yet recover. But I can feel it baby, the ball in my hands. Ahhwooo~... =D

So after training, shot some balls. Then went to computer lab1, see dota, see videos, identify bball team problems, not forgetting chatting with some unconsidered people. After went to play bball again till late afternoon. From there, I went to Npcc as they were setting up the notice board... It was great I thought, just too colourful, but the photos were great. *got me and my bros mah* of course nice lah... By the way. Bball team notice board were great too. *got me and my bros mah* of course nice lah... =]

Went back ate my dinner and proceed to coach area play bball. Today got praise, was not bad I guess. But I miss one freaking three-point shot and I still think my passing too weak. Places to improve on baby... Got lesser turnover so yeah, not bad. Then bring the ballers to coffee shop eat and went back home. o.O

One advise to all skinny and potential gonna become fat sooner or later if not gonna exercise any sooner or later people... Please go and fucking exercise and stop nibbling on chips or snacks in the freaking night. Imagine next year go school all the fat people walking around... Oh my god, gonna be so dotz... So please slim down bastards and bitches. No offense through, for your own good, think for yourself. Cheers! =)

Tuesday, November 24, 2009; Back

After quite some time, am back to blog, I guess. Didn't blog as I was busy, no time allowance to blog. Anyway talk about yesterday. 24 Nov was the date. It was a blast (kaboom)... Thought gonna faint or something. Didn't sleep then went for bball training. Whole body shaking like mad, can't balance myself. Luckily, It was nothing, recovered with time. =Q

Then, the ballers came my house to play dota and ps3 for the second time. Was fun. After, dinner at nearby and they went back. I went back and spend my time dota-ing. Too exhausted, thus sleep at 11 plus... =D

Okay, and now about the day before yesterday. 23 Nov was the date. Forgotten what happened in the morning, but watched paranormal activity before that date. Afternoon everyone come to my house to play dota and ps3 for the first time. Was fun too, but the main objective is for a run. =]

Let's talk about the run, basically it's a ticket from my house all the way to east coast park. Make a few detour of course, then it will be fun. Rested at ECP for a while, then continue running back to my house. In midway something sucky happened. Not gonna type out here... Stamina and the correct breathing is a must. So they went back to bath and to my house to dota and ps3 again. Went dinner then come back my house play again. Then they went back at around 12. =)

Finally, my turn... Don't wanna talk much about it. Kinda stupid and useless. Basically, I went to the airport to eat breakfast then go meet with Dan and go for bball training. Hahaha... Anyway thanks for the 10 bucks. =P

Guess this is it people. Gonna end my post with a words my mind is thinking now. Struck here for 30 mins le. No idea what my mind is thinking. Too confused and tired I guess. Maybe bearing a pain might not be necessary if open to medicine and cure. Why suffer when one can choose... Okay that's it. Bye peep. XD

Monday, November 23, 2009; Superman

Superman by Lamont.

cos i can be your superman yeah
oh if you let me baby yeah

i'd run into a burning building (oh)
jump in front of a train (oh)
not even take a bullet,
to make sure you're ok (oh)
no matter when you call me
girl i'll always be there
i'll be your superhero
so haters should beware

i hate to see you hurt
and i hate to see you cry (you cry)
but don't worry girl
cos i'm not that other guy (oh no)
i'm something special,
i'm something that you've never seen
(you've never seen yeah)
i'm coming to your rescue
that's when i hear them scream

it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, (super) superman
(super) superman, superman
and i'm here to save the day
it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, (super) superman
(super) superman, superman yeah
and i'm here to save the day

you see i'm more than willing
to take on any villain
i'm ready for whatever stands in our way girl
except for when we fight
it feels like kryptonite
so i'm promising i'ma be the man that you need

i hate to see you hurt (oh)
and i hate to see you cry (see you cry)
but don't worry girl (oh)
cos i'm not that other guy (oh yeah)
i'm something special,
i'm something you've never seen
(i'm something you've never seen yeah)
i'm coming to your rescue
that's when i hear them scream

it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, i'm your superman
superman, i'm your superman,
superman, superman, superman
oh it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, i'm your super
superman, (super) superman, superman yeah yeah
and i'm here to save the day

(super, super, super) superman
(super, super) superman

ohhhhh..
it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl (lois lane yeah)
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
(you don't have to be afraid)
i'm your superman, (super) superman
(super) i'm your superman, superman yeah
it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl (you're lois lane girl)
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, (super) superman
(super) your superman, superman
and i'm here to save the day

oh it's a bird, it's a plane yeah
you're lois lane girl
and it's ok you don't have to be afraid
i'm your superman, (super) superman
(super) superman, superman yeah yeah
and i'm here to save the day

Break up by Mario

(I love you,
But I don’t think I can love you anymore)

[Chorus:] ~Mario~
When I kiss you so good
Why would you wanna break up?
When this loving is so good
Why would you wanna break up?
When I hit that so good
Why would you wanna break up?
When this feeling is so good
Why would you wanna break up?

Loving you, loving you, loving you
When I’m, when I’m
Loving you, loving you
Why would you wanna break up?
(Do anything for you)
Why would you wanna break up?
(See I been driving through your hood)
Why would you wanna break up?

[Gucci Mane:]
Now baby girl had dumped me
She no longer wants me
I’m no longer hired
She said that I’ve been fired
On to the next one
More fish in the sea
Girls are like buses
Miss one, Next fifteen; one comin’
Gucci Mane crazy and his ice game stuntin’
Swag so stupid still the bitch straight dumped me
Over, no more smokin’ doja
Baby girl went AWOL
She used to be my soulja

[Bridge:] ~Mario~
(Don’t) Don’t I lace you with the Gucci?
(Don’t) Don’t I deck you in the Louis?
(Do-on’t) Don't I make your earlobe freeze?
(Don’t) When I dive, I dive deep?

I know I be (gone)
I know I be (gone)
I know I be (Flirtin wit the girls)
I know I be (sayin’ I’ll be right back but take too long)
I know I be (sayin’ I’ll be faithful but I don’t)
I know I be

Makin’ you them promises
Him breakin’ your heart again
Tellin’ you she wasn’t who she was n’ we arguin’
But, baaaby…
[ Mario Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I looove you…

Oooh!

[Repeat Chorus:]

[Sean Garrett:]
You might be from the hood
But to me girl you’ a model,
Everything that I e-eva seen (in a model)
If you leavin’ baby don’t leave me (till tomorrow
Tonight we gone get a lil typsy (with a bottle)
you gone get me up
I'mma take em down
I'mma change my ways
we can work it out
Girl I wouldn’t be the same if you was wit somebody else
Girl it wouldn’t be the same if I was wit somebody else
I know I made mistakes before
Promise you won’t get hurt no more
I got what you like and you know once you lay down it’s on

[Repeat Chorus:]

[Gucci Mane:]
Why you wanna leave me,
You should wanna tease me,
Baby icing ain’t easy, I make it look easy,
You should cop you’re belly
You should rock Louis
Now it’s fuck shawty
I don’t like Gucci (Gucci, Gucci, Gucci)

Loving you, loving you, loving you
When I’m, when I’m
Loving you, loving you
Why would you wanna break up?
Do anything for you
Why would you wanna break up?
See I been driving through your hood
Why would you wanna break up?

Loving you, loving you, loving you
When I’m, when I’m
Loving you, loving you
Why would you wanna break up?
Do anything for you
Why would you wanna break up?
See I been driving through your hood
Why would you wanna break up?

So would you, break up(break up) yeah
I’m back baby.

Sunday, November 22, 2009; Leaving

Lost for words. No idea what to type in here. But gonna squeeze in words for this post. Maybe write down my thoughts and emotional again? But it is gonna be boring as I feel like a zombie now. Completely shut off my feelings. No idea what to do. Tomorrow will be the day huh. Wondering how many farewell msg u gonna receive. Let's see, around 5 to 8 long essay for sure. Gonna be a very busy day for you. Haha. Somehow, I know it will happen. Don't really care about it too. Can't control human's thinking and doing. Went through so much le, learn quite a number of stuff. Being a slime for so freaking long. Clinging onto you. Am crazy, purposely do those stupid stuff that will cause you of all people to hate me. Haha. Take care ya. Hope that time heals huh... =]

Saturday, November 21, 2009; Past

Title wanted to write Post... but somehow Past... came out of my hand. What the fuck?! Haha. Anyway gonna talk about ytd ytd (after 12 le). And ytd (after 12 le). =]

Ytd ytd was a bit long, it is always long, I guess? Thus am so gonna to summaries it. Morning actually got Xiang work, but somehow and anyhow it is a cmi job. Completely screw up... So in the end, organise a bballer movie outing? 2012 is the show. =p

Early afternoon met up with Dan, bought the tickets for night and starbuck green tea latte. I wanna drink again! So anyway we went to Mac. Then Ern came, and Xiang came. Went to Ern's house to play and later Gene came. Reach Tamp Shaz came. Woohooo! And we went to the movie, after slack at some random voiddeck. Everyone return home after. xd

Photos for the day...

Well... Photo shows a thousand words. =)

Ah Dan arh. =p

At Mac... =]

Dun ask. ==''

Anyone?!

Before movie.

Toilet! Boy in black.

Big or small. Come bet.

Ern took this. >< Except for me, went to Changi Airport T1 as Wen Ting is going back. Through nothing much happen but still, won't get to see her anymore? Damn... Then went to eat with Zhang Hao, Chen Hong and Zi Jing, return home after. Sleep at around 3 or 4 am. ><

As for ytd, my bro came back from ns and woke me up at around 9am. Is like damn... Back again. And so a early breakfast then bought ps3 game, modern warfare 2. Played ps3 the whole afternoon then finally, went to work at 6pm. Today work was kinda okay. Not too tiring, not too relaxing. Was fine and fun. Get to know quite a number of faces. Then played ps3 till 2am which is today and chatting in msn with people. ;o

Not much expression nowadays. Problems not solve. Misunderstanding not told. Past not forgotten. Present not cherishing. Mistake not being forgive. Chances not given. There is no "what's next". No solution. Leaving soon, gonna leave it untouch. Even without a wound, touching a scar would hurt as well. Muaahahaha... Everyday cheerful, the only emotion I can show and tell. =]

After so much happiness, sadness, anger, surprise, shock, understanding. All sort of fun and interesting stuff that everyday we look forward to, finally got given up. Admit I did say bored when using msn. With your accompany then not bored le wad. Must say until entertainer so what the fuck meh. Nevermind forget it. Can't change the past.
24 Nov... Take care? ==''

Thursday, November 19, 2009; Bball

Even through the air around now is dead. I decided to blog as the bball camp is not something that happen everyday. Overall, I would give it a 3/5 star hardcore camp, it is a camp that prepare the team physically and mentally. Keeping a high morale is a must, I know myself. The moment I step into the first reporting formation, I know it will not be easy. However pushing everyone past their limit is part of my job. As a motivator of course, lot of things happen, and I will try and go through each day in detail. I realise that time is short, time is always ticking. That is a fact that no one can ever ever change. Probably that is why I reacted this way today, kind of stupid but well fuck it.

Note* For every mistake and timing that is miss, we receive push up and sit up *(regardless got do one or not) for it, I will refer it to FUCK, so it will be more understandable as there is tons and lots of it.

Day one, reporting time is at 830. We reported late, and yep we got FUCK. Next is the checking of bags, unpack and pack a couple of times. And we failed to meet the timing, we got FUCK. Then we carry all the stuff to Ava room to place at one side. I think we got FUCK too because we didn't help each other and we move too slow. Next, we were to clean Ava room, sweep and clean the area. Not forgetting cleaning the green mat. Obviously we failed to meet the timing, therefore we were FUCK.

Then I think we have our first bball training in the court. Before the training, because we didn't off the air conditioner and lock the door, we were FUCK. I sprint back to off and lock it of course. Anyway during training, I shot a total of 8 air ball, 2 in ball and the rest all miss, reason was simple cause I sucks. Then, after being FUCK during bball training, we finally get to bath. It was kinda fun, within 10 mins everyone must be ready. I guess we did it, can't really remember, anyway we were given a short rest and we watch coach national champion video. All of a sudden, we were asked to change to our white bball clothing. We went down to the court, and some school is there. Forgotten what school. Anyway we lost, but we did improve overall. We were being FUCK and called to bath after. Then we have our dinner.

Had a early rest, the time is around 7 pm. And this is the *FUCK* session, basically we had multiple changing parade. We got FUCK around as we couldn't achieve the given timing. Later we were being FUCK like hell and seriously continue to being FUCK around. Reason being coach friends, the instructors, came. And their reason to come is to FUCK us. Only the few of us know how FUCK it is. Anyway, with that FUCK session ended, we bath and sleep almost immediately as everyone is worn out. *(There was a 2.4km run on the first day which I forgot which slot is it) Day one of the camp end.

Day two finally begin, reporting time is 630. We had our early breakfast and got FUCK by Mr.Tan as we couldn't shout out while reporting. Then we get our rest again until 830. Until the next instruction came, to take a cab to Seng Kang Community Centre. Everyone exceeded the money. But everyone was chase out of the cab except for Eugene and me. There we had another sudden match, with another school, forgotten the school name. We lost again, but we did improve. We were being FUCK of course, for losing the match. Then everyone cab back to Chai Chee Sec.

We had our lunch after a short bathing time. After that, we get our rest and watched some training video clips. Then we were called to change into our running attire. We ran, and midway, it started raining, but we continued and finish the run. When we reach school, we bath and report back. Our next objective is to clean up the Ava room and return back the green mat. We were FUCK as we failed to meet the timing again.Upon finished, we had a little laugh with the Mangoboi. There, we proceed to Changi Jetty Point Chalet 3. The cab fare adds up to $26, reason, the cab not sure where is it, and we went backtrack 3 time.

Once we reach, everyone sat down quietly on the floor, waiting for coach. Once coach arrive, we were being tested by saying we are going for a run. However, the truth is we went into the bbq, and start enjoying ourselves. Until all of a sudden, the instructor had arrived long ago, and is in the room. They started to play with us again, I expected that and started laughing while reporting. I was right to laugh, it was games and performance time. Games we played some personality shit game, seaweed mouth to mouth game and finally the performance by the ballers.

Not gonna elaborate it, except for the performance part. Ern and Shazada was a group, they did a rap which is great. Dan, Gene and Xiang did skipping rope, they amaze people with it. Next, Mangoboi and me, we did a magician show, it was dotz... Finally, the ChickenLittle and Ben, did a strip show follow by some dance moves. Then comes the certificate, then while of FUCK and sending off people off the chalet. End up the whole chalet was occupy by just the bballers. We slept in two rooms and yeah... Day two of the camp end.

Day three begin. We were being tested again, for a morning run. But it was a fake and we were brought to have our breakfast. It tasted nice. Then we had debrief for the overall camp, after we clean up the area. Pack up and leave the area. Everyone cab home one by one I guess. Day three of the camp end.

Note* There is a whole lot more FUCK, just forgotten where and when it happen.

Then, Dan, Shaz, Gene and me went to bubbletea shop for drinks. Then cab again with Dan home. Continuing the day, around afternoon, had this fucking conversation with someone which is fucked. Then went to Bugis as I was being too fucked up. Brought some fucking shit and fuck it man. Saw Vanessa and Vincent, but didn't approach them.

Then went back home and anime all the way till a while ago. Then started blogging until all this shit came out. Seriously I don't know myself anymore. What do I want, what do I have. I don't even know. Going around spending money end up not accomplishing any shit. Gonna leave it now. Try to hold myself back from throwing any more shit out. Damn...

Remembering that time hating Azhar as he turn love into hate. Chao Chee Bye. I will never turn it to hate, that's only what a loser will do, this is what I told Azhar. Choosing the easy way out. To hate. Fucking piece of shit loser asshole bastard.

Finally last few sentence. Jia yiu and don't give up, Heni. For the video of course. Don't stress over it also. Nice and slowly. Do what is right. Stay strong! Push yourself to your limit! Tough time don't last, tough man do! =]

Camp

Finally back to blog after three long days... The camp was fine. All other than the camp is extremely in the worst case. Lost everything. Wondering why am I so rebellious. Regretted will not bring back anything. Something I learned. Regretted almost every single thing that happen. But it is useless... Wanted to talk about the camp, but got no mood to do it. Everything is gone. And got no one to talk to. Am all alone. Any problems can only talk to myself. More words couldn't help as well. Done too much stupid idiot things. Immerse pain felt. I don't understand myself anymore. I have no more ideas to save this shit. Haha serve me right. I deserve it, I should have prepare for this day the day I type all those fucking stuff. Stupid fucking asshole bastard me. Can't even do what I want to. Can't cure any shit. No one can save this anymore. Haha. Great.

Monday, November 16, 2009; Night

Well, this few days never blog because I was busy. Had no time to use computer at all, therefore no blog. By the way, gonna mia after this post as I will be having 3 day bball camp! It is gonna be good I guess... =)

So Sunday slept at 4am because of Heni and Jordy. Lazy to explain so please go Heni's blog to see more. Wake at 9am prepare go eat breakfast with Guanan and Johnny. Heni was late so no starbuck for you. Wakaka noobshit. After, went to Sheng Shiong to buy the bbq stuffs. For more information, please go to Heni's blog. So after Heni finally went to tuition, me and johnny went to buy satay and otak. Then followed by a number of things which I lazy to tell. So please go to Heni's blog. =P

Finally, reach East Coast Park, and it's gonna rain. Note* the time is 6pm and it is going to rain. Slowly we started the fire and I burnt my fingers. I actually use my bare finger to touch the fucking charcoal. Freaking pain and it is numb now. All is fine I guess. One by one people come and enjoy* themselves. No idea if it is fun or not as I am a lousy host. However, everything turns out fine afterall... Thanks for the cooker and the waiter. So after we drank some drinks around midnight. Ton with some people until 6am and in the process got checked by the police. Note* it didn't rain at all phew... Anyway thanks for everyone for coming... And starbuck will buy laa, thanks for helping me, it's your reward. ;D

Followed by a 5 hours of sleep and it's Saturday now! Went to some laptop interview. Going to sell Toshiba laptop on 4 days. Everything not sure through. Then went home and went to graduation night. Eaten some food, taken some photos. It was happy and sad I guess... Happy that have graduate, sad that have graduate. And I have receive the sleeping award. Cool, four years of effort, and I am the champion for sleeping in school! Haha, train harder you other noobs. Not very proud to get that reward through. =]

*edited* photo added

That's me?

Me and Desiree!

Ps my phone only take one photo.
For the rest go facebook! =]

After all this, I can't get over you. I miss you... TT

Saturday, November 14, 2009; Without

Today is another long and tiring day. Continue this way, am sure I will forget you clean as shit. Shit is never clean so I won't forget you. Lol obviously... Damn, sucks without you. What the hell am I typing. Haha. Anyway I am going to summaries today again so it will look as if as it is just another worthless day. Haha I am good in this man... =/

Morning wake, went to swimming pool at Tamp with Ern, Xiang, Dan and Leon. Afternoon eat lunch with my brother at Manpuku. The food was good! Late afternoon went to Parkway then to Cityhall. Start working at 6 till 1130. It was freaking tiring. One person handle two table. Crap. And there goes my hard-earn $30. Finally, got a $90 in my salaries. Wtf... Like some beggar working. Knnb... Then to Bedok to eat and finally cab home with Zhang Hao. Thanks... XD

Tomorrow is the bbq, may everything turn out smoothly. It is 3am now and I finally post finish. =]

Friday, November 13, 2009; Regret

Today was a exhausting day. But am going to make it sound not tired at all by summarizing it! Went to bball training, we did a morning run, carried some table and chairs and finally some physical training. After went to eat and gym! That's about it... =p

Now at home. Kinda sad when there is no one to talk to. I need to constantly put myself in busy mood so I won't feel like what I am feeling now. Not happy at all. Everyday is like another same old day to me. Unlike the time when everyday is fun and exciting. Confirm will look into tomorrow de days. It's over! Haiz... Useless so fuck it. Wahaha. =]

Really hope everything will go back to how it used to be... Now like playing hide and seek which I try to seek but she is inside a safe box. I can't open it, with the key and the replicate inside the safe box as well... Oh well... Random but quite true. ==''

Thursday, November 12, 2009; Alive

Some Photos to liven up my blog. Of course it will be photo of myself! =D Found out I always take photo in my blk lift. Cause it is like 2 mins wait. ==''
Glad that there is someone beside you all along. It will be fine this way. XD

As I grow. Lol! Thanks bitches. =p

Kinda down. In the lift wad... =p

First day work! The full of smoke toilet. XD

Me with Korean superstar. After first day work. =]

Second day work! Yawn* ;P

Freak

First, I will start of by saying I have another long long day... so gonna summaries it. Wake at nine, went to meet Zhang Hao, went to city hall to work. It was bored like fuck, job too easy to do. Slack for around four hours and work for 2 hours. But then, because of it, I have $60 inside my salaries. Slowly slowly... ;D

Second, went to play bball at coach area. Only me and Dan went through. That Quek chee bye over slept. Good! Gonna listen to some fantastic reason again. Fine... I will just accept it. So, tomorrow performance is good, I guess. But not happy. Haha, was I happy? No idea... Probably no. Lol. XD

Third, I will talk about how busy I am going to be for this two weeks. Endure people. This post gonna end soon! =p. Friday going to bball training and some physical training. Saturday going to work during night time, and another $30 will be earn! Sunday there will be a bbq! Of cause I have lots of assistance. Can prepare for January de bbq also. Hehehe... Not yet forget! Monday will be the graduation night! Gonna be another sad night, that's for sure. Tuesday all the way to Thursday there is bball training camp. Should be fun and tiring. Friday and Saturday there's job from Kai Xiang. Looking forward to it!

All there goes my one week! Done for today! Phew... Lost my smile haha. Interesting... =D

Gonna share a song! Don't comment please. Just listen. Not happy shut up. Thanks!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009; Moving

Haha... Started my blog with haha is a good choice. Cause I decided to move on. Being a irritating fifteen young boy isn't too pleasant afterall. Shall stop bothering her... Once and for all! Reminded me of my past. All the same, end le will never talk again. Wahaha... Another friend lost I guess. Damn... Gonna make sure the next one won't happen again. Chee bye... ==''

Heart is not close by myself. Not forcefully instead it close up automatically... Fully understand how it feels to choose to ignore a person. I did ignore someone too! Nevermind... Look forward, straight and slowly go back to how I behave in the past. I shall give no more sorry and no more thanks. More alone life, less chatting life, more ps3 life, more audition life... Lol. And not forgetting basketball life. It is a result of another person this time. Shit! Thanks all this fuckers for changing me so much. XD

Haha... Still must thanks through. Danah is right, everytime something happen, I will change into a better person. Thanks all this person to set me off the right path, I guess. Learnt a lot of honging skills through. Guess it will be useful for my future. Hehe... Learn how a honging behave, how they hong, how they speak, how daring they must be. But all too normal and standard le. I have to think of better ways. Like my darling Ah Peng, call people gorgeous... *(have to check how to spell this word, never use before). Not bad huh! My chee bye mother born gay porno bastard... Hehe. :D

By the way. I am a cheerful boy! Going to behave like how I did when I do not have all this problems. After this post is done, will chiong to play ps3! Demon Soul! Expect to kill tons of time with this man. Hopefully my whole holiday. And it's true that when your sad, go find something to do. To keep yourself occupy and busy so got no time to think of stuff. And for me, I found myself some jobs! Expect to kill tons of my time as well. And and and, I earned my first $30 yesterday. Lan Jiao, half a day *(6 hours), some skills, english and human physical and emotional to exchange for money. Stupid mother fucker son of a bitch. Not too bad through! ;p

With O level ended... I am a free man. Finally... Exam is easy through. Nothing chaining me now! Wahaha... Expected score for O level is between 10 to 16 points. So wish me luck for 10 points! All the chickens in the world! Handphone gonna return to the state of resting mode again. Enough words for today I guess... No end of speech I tell ya. Worst than all the principal in school. Wahahaha! =)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009; Fade

Long day... =]

All that you have said last night. I understand it all. Finally get it...
Me too, feels nothing after a night of sleep. Just like a close heart...
But I won't give up just like that. I will still do what I wanna do... Never give up.

Sunday, November 8, 2009; Pain

Yep... Am back to blog again. Feeling very depress now. Super down. All the way to negative point... Feel like a dead person typing all this emotions down. Everyone might felt the same way. Alicia I am really sorry about all those things in the past. Without you, I really have lost the reason for me to smile. I can't even fake myself to laugh now. Looks like I am the weak one here... I try to respect you by letting you go home by yourself. But immediately after you left, rain drop... Really worry about you. It is not going to be easy without her around, realise that. Really hope that everything is just a nightmare. And it will be over soon. Being a real idiot typing all this out. With all this pen down in here. I will going to stop blogging for now. Will be back in no time. Stay tune to my life story! Sorry...

Regardless how painful it will hurt myself, I will still continue.

Soon

The time now is 4am. Going to leave house in another hour... Getting to spend the whole day with a empty house is no fun. Was kinda lonely. Hopefully, later things will turn out fine. Kinda worried about it. Please no more trouble... Don't want any more misunderstanding? Because I will get to see her, hopefully won't affect her mood. Guess that I am thinking too much again. =x

Anyway I have ton for two days... I think. Lazy count how many hours. And today I spent my night playing dota and watching anime. Damn, freaking tired. Later morning or afternoon still has to get a jab then go for job training. It has being a long two day for me. Crazy two days... Head spinning but still okay. @@

Damn... very worry about you. The last few days must be rough. Please be happy everyday. Get some rest after she leave and get prepare for Chinese... Am very sure that she want you to do well also. Most important, cheer up! ^^

Sometime I feel like I am writing to the wall. But well, at least I am able to express what I wanna say out. Good enough for me, I guess... =]

Bye

Today morning my bro came back. Awake since last morning. Watched animes, read manga, play internet games. All these kill night time fucking fast. Before I know it, my bro is back. So we went to Kim Gray at T1 to eat breakfast, early in the morning eat this kind of breakfast is like waa de hell... If everyday like that, my life will have more meaning. Except for the sleeping part. Haha... Brought ps3 games. I was sad that there was games for me... Anyway said bye to my bro, gonna see him next week I guess. =[

Gonna spend my time alone alone and alone I guess. No one to go out with, no basketball training until Tuesday. Damn, life freaking meaningless. Plus she going back later, less one person to msn. On msn also bai on le, never chat with anyone at all. Don't worry?! I am a cheerful boy. Will take good care of myself and will not waste my holiday! ._.

Going to off my computer now and ton ps3 till later. Woo! Spend and spent a day playing alone in house. No one in going to be in my house expect for me until Monday late night! Going out later... =p

Wanna talk and sort things out... When will be the day?...

Saturday, November 7, 2009; Family

Gonna summaries everything that happen yesterday and today. Even so, I believe it will be quite long. So bear with it folk!

On the 6th of Nov, stayed at home till evening. Going out on the afternoon were canceled due to some problems. Don't worry, not like one year go out one time.

So ermm... Went out with the china people. Sorry to address you all this way, but best way to group all of us in it. There were a lot of people, Went to Katong shopping centre to meet them, then Parkway as one of them wanna change money. Cab-ed to Gelyang lor12 to eat satay and weird stuffs... Drink lots of green tea. Hehe...

After, bus-ed to Bugis de Topone. They sing Chinese song and I listen for the whole time. Played dice and well... Bill came out to be $600+, everyone had to pay $40. Goddammit... But enjoyed the freeflow water. Hehe... Then, went home, bath, sleep. The rest went to "Bao Yea".*(Play whole night of computer)

On the 7th of Nov, morning went out of house for a waiter job at TCC. Am sure it gonna keep me occupied during the holiday. However, must make full use of my holiday huh. Then, went to Katong Shopping Centre play dota. Win some lose some...

Until evening, where everyone walk separate way, I didn't want to go home. So I ended up in Parkway alone. Brought "Strawberry Green Apple Milk Tea". The auntie reminded me of "No Pearl". Wow, impression very deep huh. For those that understand...

Followed by East Coast Park! Parkway Area was C, I traveled all the way to D48, to check out the pit for class bbq. It was a good location, I thought to myself... Then having nothing to do, I continued all the way down*(I mean face sea then turn left) to Area F. A new skate-park was there. Cool people flying all around.

After, slack at Area F seeing people flying. Then walked to MacDonald which is at Area C, it's finger licking good! And yes, it is a detour, I actually walked back. Drank iced milo and again, slack there. Walked around, see some people roller blade, see some Tamiya cars. Was cool, didn't know all those things exist. Finally, walked home from Area C, it was farrrrr... However didn't get lost, found my way back almost immediately.

Reach home, chatted in msn. And blog. Gonna sleep after this. Basically today is a day of walking. Walked through the night... Was depress but well, it gonna turn out fine. And and and someone is leaving soon. Damn... Take care and cheer up!

Hope you would trust me again. Believe that I will never hurt you again. After going through so much. Open up your heart please... I am in wrong.

Thursday, November 5, 2009; Realise

Today, linked everyone up I guess. That is everyone I know which has a blog, I think. Among all of this, I only chat with two people the most frequent. Never ending chat. *(not really) Kinda sad huh, but it is good enough for a 15 years old boy. Last time, was three people but well... Haha should know. Due to my idiotic thinking in the past, screw up lot of things. Damn... Really hope everything will turn out fine by itself, but it will not... >_<

Anyway, back to today, finish my poa paper. Wasn't as hard as I thought it will be, in fact it is easy! With that paper gone, I am already flying in air. However, wasn't happy at all as my life is missing something, someone. Really wonder how I can make things better. Just thought that I was really a bastard, now also I think. Regretted what I have done. Doing and typing whatever I feel like and want to. Sorry for it, everyone and you. Life has being a total change ever since that happen. T_T

And forgot a important part, I went to bball training today. Decided to train up for bball camp (hardcore training?) on the 17 18 and 19 Nov. On the 16 Nov is the graduation night, the day when I leave CCSS. And 15 Nov a bbq, please let everything turn out fine. Let's see, 11 Nov is when I finish my Os level, officially. 10 Nov is the Chinese O level exam. 7 8 9 Nov is the Bintan trip which I cannot go. 6 Nov going out! Farewell and celebration? Two in one! Just realise that I listed down the main events for this month, in reverse manner. =D

Wednesday, November 4, 2009; Toh

That's me! Mark as the return of de hair! School cant catch my hair no more.

Random bird?! Drawn during physic class. I love it, the way I present this.

Today, exam was fine. It always is... Anyway O level is ending real soon. Tomorrow?! Chinese O level is on the 10th. Please if there is god, let her do well. *I don't believe in god, but she does, so can lah. XD

And yeah, today's happy thing is. Hmm... Get a replied from her? Didn't expected that. Haha. And. Err... Slept in Geo paper for 30 mins. And. Played bball! =]

Looking forward to 6th! Where I can get some fresh air! =D

Tuesday, November 3, 2009; Bball

Today, morning went out eat with my mom. Brought some stuff and went to school. Hmm... school was boring when there is nothing to do. Ended up in bball court. =]

Played bball and then went for Dnt exam. It was good I guess, the paper. After exam, went to bball training to tired myself out. Feel damn tired and shiok after training. Study a bit for physic after I reach home... Feeling lifeless in myself already. Kinda depress. Haha. Maybe I am just tired. =D

Feel that life has gone back to square one. The time when I had no one to have fun. Except for me, myself and I. Now I think about it, I can only try to keep myself happy and cheerful everyday. Walk one step see one step. Can't do anything about it anymore...

She happy can le. Shouldn't invade her life anymore. That what I think. =)

So today's happy thing is ermm... receive a good luck msg! Even through I only see it after training. It was good enough for the day. Smile~ XD

Monday, November 2, 2009; My, Yourself

Over the past day and today, I watched finish a 13 episodes of anime. Title myself yourself. It was a good past time, considering the plot and story were good. One of the best anime I watch after so long... This lead to me thinking to myself. This is how I past my freaking time during the past. (>-.-)>

In the past, I will always rush home first thing first to play games. I had no much friends and all... I was basically living in my own world. With tons of freedom and time flying around me. It continued all the way until now I guess. (>.<)

The last weekend, my brother came back from Tekok and we actually gather a list of "ps3 list". It was a list that has all the games my bro and me wanted to play. Guess wad people. It ended up being $2000 plus. He said this "for sure you play game until no time go out". Really makes me think... (=p)

What is going on in my life. Anime? Music? Game? Sport? Friend? Family? Relationship? Technology?... It is basically another focus in my life. I am being block by lots of trouble. Not knowing what to do. Not knowing what step to take. It is my life and I don't know how to control it. Walk one step see one step is what I can do now. (;x)

Everyone has different life, thinking and their very own right to choose their very own path to walk. I shouldn't have comment so much now I realize that. Was really being stupid and dumb, must admit that but 一人做事一人当... Only had to accept what I done and accept whatever punishment. (=])

So that lead to who I am. What I think about myself is is probably a being of solitude. But hey, I am a cheerful boy ya. Although I was a anti-social guy to begin with. (primary school) *vomit right... yup that's me!* However, as I grow, I begin to talk more. With that "Ichigo" mask of mine... Bankai! No one can see through me! (XD)

And let me see... Worst, I actually brought my courage together and approach her, through different ways and means. I found out that I can do it! But guess that was a huge mistake of mine. Considering the situation now. But because of that, I changed... Lot. Thanks?! Okay, enough of my boring thoughts coming out of my brain. The rest gonna store and hide. Hehe... That what I always do. Bye readers. (^^)

*There is reason why I watch animes as well...
*But that a secret! Maybe next time. ☺♥

Sunday, November 1, 2009; Random

Studying was really not my thing. That is why I am here. Today whole day at home rot. So gonna upload some random photos my phone have taken over the year. Sorry if there is any unglamorous photos. =]